Author's Note: Here is my version of the breakup letter from Nicholas Sparks novel, Dear John. This letter is written from Savannah's point of view as she writes a letter to John, who is currently in Iraq. This is the letter that puts an end to their relationship and explains why it is time for her to end it.
Dear John,
With all that we have been through together, it is hard for me to gather my thoughts and spill them out onto paper, especially with these countless tears running down my cheeks. I understand if you hate me, and if you never wish to speak to me again because right now, part of me hates me too. When I look in the mirror, I feel your presence with me, looking down on me for the choices I made and I feel that I do not deserve to be loved at all. Before I decided to write this letter I spent a lot of time trying to make sense of my thoughts and right now all I know is how much you mean to me and just how much I am going to miss you.
I know this is a terrible time for you and as I sit here I try to imagine what exactly life is like for you right now. I pray for you each and every night, and I always will. No matter how much things may change, I want you to know that. We have had our ups and downs throughout the last two and a half years, and with you gone overseas it seems we have more downs now than ever before. I long to be with you once again, and to be able to relieve the events from last summer: the times on the beach, the times I spent in your arms, and the countless memories. You and I shared someone wonderful and to me that means our souls will be linked together forever. But as we both know, things have changed John. With you gone all the time, I feel I have no one else to turn to, I cry myself to sleep at night and try to imagine you next to me, like the night we spent together so long ago. I hate myself for saying this, but I feel it is time to tell you, instead of letting this go on any longer and believe me I did not mean to fall in love with someone else.
I myself do not even know how it happened, so there is no possible way for me to expect you to. I am truly sorry and I should have done he right thing and told you a long time ago, but I could never find the heart to do so. Part of me wishes you could be here with me now so this could have been done in person, but as we both know that is not possible, so I guess this is how it has to be. No matter what the future may bring, you will always be my first true love John, and I believe I am the person I am because of it.
Please forgive me,
With all that we have been through together, it is hard for me to gather my thoughts and spill them out onto paper, especially with these countless tears running down my cheeks. I understand if you hate me, and if you never wish to speak to me again because right now, part of me hates me too. When I look in the mirror, I feel your presence with me, looking down on me for the choices I made and I feel that I do not deserve to be loved at all. Before I decided to write this letter I spent a lot of time trying to make sense of my thoughts and right now all I know is how much you mean to me and just how much I am going to miss you.
I know this is a terrible time for you and as I sit here I try to imagine what exactly life is like for you right now. I pray for you each and every night, and I always will. No matter how much things may change, I want you to know that. We have had our ups and downs throughout the last two and a half years, and with you gone overseas it seems we have more downs now than ever before. I long to be with you once again, and to be able to relieve the events from last summer: the times on the beach, the times I spent in your arms, and the countless memories. You and I shared someone wonderful and to me that means our souls will be linked together forever. But as we both know, things have changed John. With you gone all the time, I feel I have no one else to turn to, I cry myself to sleep at night and try to imagine you next to me, like the night we spent together so long ago. I hate myself for saying this, but I feel it is time to tell you, instead of letting this go on any longer and believe me I did not mean to fall in love with someone else.
I myself do not even know how it happened, so there is no possible way for me to expect you to. I am truly sorry and I should have done he right thing and told you a long time ago, but I could never find the heart to do so. Part of me wishes you could be here with me now so this could have been done in person, but as we both know that is not possible, so I guess this is how it has to be. No matter what the future may bring, you will always be my first true love John, and I believe I am the person I am because of it.
Please forgive me,
Savannah
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